Monday, November 14, 2005

Future wedding still on

There are people out there like me.
I said, "I'll marry you."

He said, "Okay, but I've some stuff to do first, it might be a few years."
I replied: "Me too, there are some things I need to accomplish first."

Sometimes I look at it and it seems like such a strange agreement, but it doesn't feel strange or weird.

We don't live in the same city. He travels. I hadn't seen him in over a year, and he came to my city on business, stayed in my casa with his business associates/best friends. The four musketeers landed in my home. I love company, I love to host, to take care of people, to serve them, see their clothes strewn about my house. They made themselves right at home.
I took joy in that, I'm told few people do, I think that's a shame, I love to share.

It was hard to mac on my mac daddy while also surrounded by his peers. I could feel them all watching out of the corner of their eyes. Protective and curious.
He wants to wear a red punk rock wig at the wedding. I told him not if my Grandma and Grandpa are still alive, they like to be conservative and traditional. This of course is not going to impede me from being barefoot under a tree, outside with daisies in my hair. Everything else is negotiable beyond that except red punk wigs. How am I gonna keep a straight face exchanging my vows to a bright red punk wig?

He's an atheist.
I have a guru, a teacher I look to to show me how to better love and serve all.
He believes love is based of desire and wants. The want to be wanted, to procreate, etc.
I know unconditional love.
He believes we have one shot and one shot only to do a good job, I have been around the spiritual block a few times.
I believe he hasn't experienced Divine Intervention in his life, and I have. I didn't know God til that moment, so I understand his skeptism. His natural intuition blows me away, I can't believe he can't feel God working through him in this way, but whateva. I have my own lessons to learn this and he has his. He's still gonna have to meet my guru.

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