There is Little That I Know

Not many I fully understand.
There was a time
where I begged
BEGGED
to have a more
comprehensive outlook
but I was shown
it was not mine
to question
but to follow orders.
Normally, I don’t
question the path,
I just take it,
as I’ve seen enough
to know that there are
greater forces at work
than little old me, but
at the moment I feel
the desert wind cold
on my skin and I’m
yearning for that which
is beyond me.
Something that this
present moment
can not give me,
and I feel robbed.