As we spend our last day together, my twenties, let us enjoy the moment. What a great run we've had, huh? Look at how much we grew! Geez, at the beginning, when we met, you were a sad and depressed little girl who didn't know your worth. Now look at you! Really, you'll be fine without me, I know you can't see that too clearly, but I think you can handle things on your own now. I have faith in you.
As I journey to one of my favorite spots on the planet. I can't help but think of the past. On my 30th birthday it will be my 3rd time to visit. My first day there I let my heart be so open. It makes me sad that I feel the need to be on guard. But when I let myself be open, inevitably great heartache comes along with it. I don't know if it is really worth the trade off. The heartache seems for me to always last so much longer. It is work for me to get to that point of having my heart be wide, then months, years of preparation and healing goes down the drain when love enters the picture. Because love is called to my heart when it is that wide. I don't know what the resolution is to this, because I want my heart to be that open, but everytime I do it seems to jump out of my chest and run away.
Well, I enjoy life. I am very thankful, it is full of beautiful things that I see vividly. Despite the troubles with my heart, life and it's beauty is the thing that gets me through my day. I wish I could enjoy it to it's fullest, but with my desire to find love I always seem to miss out on enjoying the whole spectrum. I'll continue to work on that.
Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, thirties. Where ya been all my life?
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