Yeah, I saw Amma. She helped refocus my awareness. There are things that truly matter and a lot that don't. Sometimes I get caught up in details and I neglect the bigger picture that is underlining everything. Love is such a simple, easy thing. Attachments blurr it's beauty.I wish that things for me would have such poignant clarity all the time, but I believe that comes with daily meditation and also being put in to actual practice.
I haven't been one to be down with polytheism. I believe in one God who works through love and compassion. Back when I lived in a mouse infested house with two common senseless engineers and had an army cot for a bed, I pledged myself a servant of God. There are others who live out their lives in much worse conditions but I had virtually nothing and there on that cot- wondering why I made the treck to land in Oklahoma of all places- I felt God's presence. A warm glow of pure love completely bathing me. I would like to feel this always. I feel this in Amma's presence too. Hokey or not, this is my experience.
Now I don't always agree with the assignments God hands me but I do them just the same. If I wasn't so reluctant I'm sure I'd be farther along now but I've noticed in hindsight everything is in perfect time. I do my best to serve my fellow beings to the best of my capacity. That is why I dig Amma. She's got it down to a greater degree than I can even fathom. I therefore look to her for guidance.
Oh, yeah, back to polytheism... I believe ALL ONE, but this weekend images of Ganesh, the elephant headed God, the destroyer of obstacles, called to me with his broken tusk and twining trunk. I could not deny my own inner obstacles as I studied his visage. I enjoy the thought of a symbol helping to focus on particular difficulties that I face. If that is what polytheism is, then I'm diggity down. Ganesh now swings on a silver chain above my heart.
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